So I am in the car with mom and grandma.. Grandma is queen of hurtful words now.. Anyway.. I was lamenting that my "kids" had grown up. Grandma said what kids .. I said the kids I babysat from the day they were born to they day they left me.. They called me mom and their mom second mom. They depended on me for their meals, baths, everything. They were my kids in my heart. My only kids I will ever have. Grandma says they weren't your kids, you can't have kids. What a great way to start the fucking day. Mom said, didn't you take care of kids that weren't yours that called you mom grandma? She said well maybe.. Well. She can't have kids. These were in her heart as close as she can get to her own kids. So .. Besides being depressed for other reasons that just topped the fucking cake. Goodie fucking goodie.
